One way of knowing if things are moving forward is experiencing pain and joy in spurts at odd times of the day. The feelings just gush out unexpectedly, unrelated to what time of the day it is, where you are at or what's happening around you. And these feelings are so strong, they affect you physically. The pain is so palpable, so real you'd be looking for some cut or bruise all over your body. Joy, too, is so real, you'd find yourself smiling ear to ear even at a funeral. This is the way for the body, the mind and the soul to adapt to the motion of moving forward.
Needless to add, I have been experiencing these motions for sometime now. But the frequency and the intensity of these sudden bursts of joy and sorrow has increased, telling me I must be near something good. And it has to be good. Cos for me, moving on/forward is always good. Never bad.
There's another thing I've come to realise. And 'tis that the CHOICE is always yours. Don't you fool yourself by thinking you need to do something cos of the circumstance or the situation you are in, and that, the most pathetic excuse of all, you are doing it for the other person. Don't do that. No matter if it makes you feel like Mother Teresa, don't ever do it. Well, don't do it in case you want to be happy and not be a sad-looking frame of pent-up feelings. The golden rule I am living my life by right now is I OWE IT TO MYSELF. It's working for me!
At times when you think you can't come to any decision, be extremely conscious of your brain activities. Then, suddenly, there will be visions...so blurred, so mild you'd even miss it if you don't experience it minutely, which are actually answers to your doubts. We all have them but most of us miss them or ignore them. But feel closely, and there it will be, a glimpse of your future. Moving from there should be easy then.
A lot of faith and hope is another thing you need to have when moving on. And though it may not be there, just saying it loud a few times of the day or writing it on post-its and putting them up everywhere in the house, helps. Fool yourself into believing your are being very optimistic...smile for no damn reason and believe it even more...and before you know, the little sapling of hope would have tuned into a pretty little shoot in your heart. You will be on your way forward before you know it pal :)
Don't forget to wave at me when you meet me on the way!!!
